Maybe I did not got used to it, I think I just grew up like this.
And I am surrounded by love, by too much love, and this is really punching me down on the ground.
I am more the kind of person, who likes to handle things on her own, and the less people help, the better I will feel.
The thing is, I do not need any strangers to care. i mean, it is really cute of them, but this is just not helping me. It would be a bit more helpful, if the people around me would care. But, I have to say, this got a whole lot better, because there were times I got simply ignored. But, now they do care, and yet nothing has changed, because problems won’t fade away by people caring, some things will never fade away, and problems are not able to heal with love, that would be ways too easy and ways too magically.
And it’s simply.. I am not the kind of person that enjoy love that much.. it scares me, and makes me feel weird. I am rather on my own, and i rather suffer, than be happy, because i am scared I won’t pay attention to things anymore when I am too happy.
And sorry, I probably make no sense at all right now, to messed up to think right now, sorry.
You know what?
I’m not gonna answer.
I told you more than once about it, and if you still don’t get it, well then I am sorry.
Anyways, it’s over, because I am tired of this crap, really tired, and I feel very used by you.
Thanks a lot.
Goodbye person that I used to like.